I'm going to cry...am I gay?

I am balling my eyes out...I'm a guy and I think I might be gay. I know there isn't anything wrong with it, but to me, I thought I'd neve end up this way. I don't like feeling like this. My heart is telling me yes to guys, but then my mind says no, and points toward the road of heterosexuality. I want to love girls and have a wife and get married and maybe have kids. But I can't, because I feel like this. I'm attracted to so many guys. There is this one guy...I'm not going to say his name, but he is so cute. He has the most goregous green eyes on the planet, and he is just so cute. I think I might also be genderfluid, and I just don't want to have these urges that I am gay. I've had nightmares of me as a girl, me as gay...it haunts me. I'm balling right now and I am NOT trolling...somebody please help me! I don't know if I am gay or not and how to stop it. I don't even know how I ended up turning this way, neither of my parents are gay, but I was molested twice, both by guys. What do I do?